Tout De l'Amour

LOVE. Such a strong word. A very vague word. A word whose EXACT meaning is yet to be determined. Ask a hundred people for their definition and you will get a hundred different answers, that is how complex LOVE is.

Oftentimes it is associated with cotton candies, the heart, the color red, happiness, two people in bed, chocolates, flowers, sugar and spice and everything nice. Ideally, it brings out happy thoughts and blissful emotion from someone who experiences it. But unfortunately, this is not the case all the time.

There would always be people who would associate love with pain, anger, heartbreak, loneliness, and, in the most gruesome circumstances, blood and death. How many times have you heard of murder caused by jealousy? 

Fairytales may always have happy endings where the beautiful princess marries her handsome prince, but in reality, some princesses end up brokenhearted, with only their pillows to hear their sobs as they cry themselves to sleep at night.

Crying is always a part of falling in love. It comes with the package along with cuddling, making out, fighting and the exchange of sweet nothings. But when do you draw the line between normal crying and too much crying when you are in love? How much is too much anyway?  

Most of the time we refuse to accept the hard truth that we have reached the end. We shun the fact that we are indeed crying too much already, because we still hope that that tormenting chest pain and head-splitting headache brought about by excessive weeping would go away after a dose of hugs and kisses and that everything will be back to normal. We hang on and hold on, even if we're absolutely sure that the crying would occur again anytime soon. We enjoy the temporary ecstasy that we experience after every fight, because it seems to be the sweetest, since we become vulnerable and more sensitive.

But isn't it amazing how you forget about all the aches when you finally reconcile with the love of your life? You begin by saying "I'm sorry," and "It was so stupid of me," and then you start to feel really silly, thinking about how stupid you've been and regret the horrible things that you said or did. 

Then after forgiveness comes the endless promise that you would never do what you did to hurt the other ever again.  You stop pitying yourself and start gaining that in-cloud-nine status again.

I've been through this and despite the pain that my significant other and I have gone through, for me love is still something to be thankful for. It gave us strength more than it made us weak.  Happy memories lingered longer than the sad ones. Each fight made us love and treasure each other more. 

We are not about to give up. Instead, we are ready to face the odds that might come our way.  We know that we will always be there for each other. We know that we will remain faithful to each other. We know that no matter how much pain we inflict on each other, in the end it will be the two of us who will heal each other's wounds.

It is great to be in love! Pain is just one tiny dot compared to the joy that you experience when you are in love. So the next time you feel like you're falling, don't hold back. Don't be afraid to fall and experience all about love.