New Year, new layout. It figures. BUT, like always, I am not yet satisfied with this one, even though it looks a lot like my previous layie. So watch out for a gazillion more alterations before I finally settle for it.

So how did you spend your Holidays? Me, I ate and ate and surfed and surfed. And now I'm getting sad because this life is about to return to "normal." As in stressful and busy. Argh, must be optimistic. It's a brand new year!

And speaking of new things, two of my Tabulas friends have decided to move to new blog hosts. 2Spade to Wordpress and Clarise to Livejournal. Your Tabulas pals will certainly miss you around here, but you can be sure that I will continue to lurk your new cyber homes!

Oh crap. Look at the time. Will do a more decent first blog of the year entry later or whenever. Happy 2009!

Actually, I have absolutely no idea where I'm standing. All I know is that my 2009 didn't start right. In fact it had a really bad beginning. But I am still hopeful that I'll be able to fix whatever needs fixing. I've always been full of hope no matter how grave the situation is. And I have been down this road so many time throughout my entire adult life, I should be able to resolve all these issues again. I hope.

My already pathetic life just got worse.

Things are still confusing, but I've stopped crying, which is a good sign, right?

I didn't think it was possible but there's actually this site where you can read novels, short stories and poems online. I chanced upon Read Book Online while searching for anything on F. Scott Fitzgerald's The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, which is now a major motion picture starring Brad Pitt and Cate Blanchett.

I actually thought of reading Jane Austen novels from this site but realized that it's not a very good idea as it would be too stressful for my eyes and my mom's Meralco bill. Anyhow, I guess you can read short stories (like The Curious Case...) and poems. And there are essays too!

So when you are done reading the first few chapters of Midnight Sun (which I am not) maybe you can drop by this site and try to read something other than a vampire fiction. Peace!

I never imagined myself in this situation. Not in my wildest dreams. For me it has always been an impossibility. But I was wrong. Dead wrong. And so here I am fighting. Fighting for what is mine. Fighting for what I have been living for.

Click, click, click!

Last night after talking to Paul on the phone I went straight to bed. It was a bit early (10:45). A few hours later I woke up and saw my sister in her uniform. I panicked and checked my watch. It says 12:50.

Still disoriented, I gave her a puzzled look and she just smiled and said "maaga pa," which made it even more confusing. I was about to get up, take a bath and get ready for work when I realized that my sister was still out celebrating a friend's birthday when I went to bed that night and finally figured out that she just got home and that was why she was in uniform.

Sometimes we become disoriented with what's happening in our lives. We see things in a different light and fail to understand what is really going on. Either we remain confused or refuse to comprehend the truth because we are too afraid to get hurt.

But after everything has been made clear, you will realize that not knowing what is wrong and refusing to address the problem will only make matters worse. Choosing to stay disoriented doesn't protect you completely from the painful truth, it only prepares you for the hardest blow.

I am the worst EVERYTHING in the whole world.

The old Ivee is (almost) as dead as Rustom Padilla.

Not switching genders though.

We heard him talk. Now let's see him work.

All mine!

Hash Browns from McDonald's

I am one happy potato lover.

It was like eating at a turo-turo, but a lot more expensive and a lot more delicious. Yeah, it was like a karinderya for the rich and conyo.

It's Thai Cuisine at its finest. Located at Rockwell (sa gilid). Check out the review here.

Tip: Sobrang dami daw talagang kumakain dito ng lunch at dinner, so you might want  to go there earlier or pag patay na oras. By the way, nasa kalye yung dining area nila na daanan ng mga magagarang sasakyan (Ford, Chevy, etc.).

Sobrang sarap. Sobrang sulit!

Ladies, never take your men for granted. No matter how faithful they are, no matter how much they love you, if you don't treat them right they might find the attention that you're supposed to be giving them from another girl, whether it's just a friend or otherwise.

In that case, you have no one else to blame but yourself because you have been selfish. You became too confident that they will forever be yours and that no matter what you do, they will always be there for you.

Remember that fairy tales and happy endings are not only about the princesses. They are also about the princes who make the princesses happy in the end. The knights in shining armor who risked their lives to save their ladies deserve to be loved without any reservations. That's the only way it will work.

This was meant to be a warning to those who have been neglecting their significant others. It was also about the lessons that I've learned the hard way. I am still with my man and I am making up for my shortcomings. I just hope it works.

I will never forget. I can only ignore.

I had a class today. Financial Management. The whiteboard was covered with figures they call numbers that, naturally, I do not understand. Formulas were all over and my brain was screaming "STOP!" Everything that the professor was saying was gibberish to me.

There was even a point during the discussion when my vision became blurry, either because I was too sleepy or my neurons were about to give up on me. I was surprised I didn't faint. I, however, managed to nod in agreement to the professor's every word. Of course he did not need to know that I didn't really comprehend. At least I stayed awake until the end of the class.

I can never co-exist with numbers. Never. But I am not the only one who has this, er, condition. Some (or most) of my classmates in college also freak out when faced with a mathematical problem. Thank goodness for multi-tasking mobile phones because we cannot live without calculators. When we eat out we all just stare at the bill after until the bravest among us finally volunteers to divide it.

I'm so glad that subject was over. I'm so glad this Saturday is almost through.