This week has been an interesting one, the highlight being the Search for Mutya ng Taguig City 2005. I'm not really a fan of beauty pageants (beacause I don't see the point in having to wear a bathing suit on stage in front of many people) but I wanted to watch this one because Paul's sister was a candidate. I used to just watch the coronation night but this time I was present during the swimsuit competition and the talent night. (hindi daw fan oh?!!)

I was really impressed with this year's production. Parang Mutya ng Pilipinas. It was hosted by papa TJ Manotoc (another reason why I watched) and Bb. Pilipinas International Lara...something (forgot her last name!). TJ was very polite to still compliment the production despite some technical problems. Kung si Anthony Pangilinan yun, nakatikim nanaman ng pang-o-okray ang mga organizers.

What was more impressive was the distinguished panel of the board of judges. And when I say distinguished, I mean really distinguished. Even TJ (first name basis?!) was very impressed. Sa sobrang bigatin ng judges, hindi sila kilala ng mga tao! Renee Salud and Randy Ortiz were there, astig noh?

Anyway, I wasn't surprised when I heard some palpak answers during the question and answer portion. In fact, it was another reason why I wanted to watch. I sort of wanted to practice my editing skills, harhar!! I'm soo mean! Pumikit na lang ako para mapigil ang tawa ko!

At dahil malapit na ang mother's day, ito ang theme ng mga sagot ng ilang kandidata:

Q: If there was one person who could live forever, who would that person be and why?

A: If there was one person who could live forever, it will definitly be my mother because (ma-dramang justification of her answer here). That's all, thank you!

Q: Who is your hero and why?

A: My hero is my mother because (ma-chuvang justification of her answer here). That's all, thank you!

ito ang pinaka nakaka-loka:

Q: What is your greatest ambition in life and why?

A: My ambition in life is to be a (surprise! surprise!) mother because (a tribute-to-her-mom justification of her answer here). That's all, thank you!

In fairness, the winner was deserving naman (syempre, kabaranggay ko eh! hehe..mabuhay ang Palingon!).

That's all, thank you!

Before cheering for Chai last night at the coronation night, Paul and I went to the job fair at Robinson's Galleria. Upon seeing the thick line of unemployed Filipinos, my reaction was anak ng !!! Pero 'di naman ako kaagad nawalan ng pag-asa. We still tried to fall in line. Sayang naman ang pinunta namin dun, kahit 'di naman masyadong effort dahil malapit lang naman sa bahay.

Two hours later, hindi na kami natutuwa. Lalo na nang malaman namin na we were lining up for the registration pa lang! Sobrang bad trip, kaya we decided to leave. Syempre, ginawa muna namin ang paborito naming gawin, ang kumain! hehe. We were craving for some Japanese (Rai-rai ken) or Thai (Oody's) sana, but since we're still jobless and a little broke, nag-food court nalang kami. Okay lang kasi sarap naman ng sisig ng Steak 2000 (yum).

Then we strolled for a while. Fortunately, we bumped into Ian and Ren (of Journ 1) so I asked them if they were able to penetrate the trade hall. Hay naku, hindi rin daw! Then they told me that there was also a job fair going on at Megamall so we rushed there, baka dun may mangyari pa. Buti na lang hindi marami ang tao so we were actually able to get in the trade hall. I saw Beck, and she was pretty as always, tulad ko! hehe..

Oh, I saw IC woMendoza din pala sa Galle, and he/she's prettier in person.

Lesson learned: Never go to job fairs.

What a coincidence, Vicky (of that Korean online teaching thing) called up din yesterday asking if I already have a job. My sister said wala pa, so she was asking me to call her back. I'm still undecided, whether I would call her back..

A few days ago, Michee, my mom and I went to Market! Market! (kailangan ganito talaga ang pagsulat nito!) to buy some stuff for my cousins in Canada. Hay naku, imagine the torture that our feet experienced! nagsama-sama ba naman ang mga mahihilig sa window shopping! As usual, we searched the whole place--ay hindi pala, yung tiangge section lang pala--to find the perfect gifts and about three hours later, we ended up buying shirts and accessories for them. How creative.

Anyway, I was able to buy things for myself as well . I spotted this cute banig handbag with a native flower accent, which was on sale. Since I'm a real sucker for bags, I bought it (mura lang naman noh, sale nga eh).

Then my sister suggested that I buy a pair of Banana Peel flip flops dahil..wala lang. So I looked for the cutest design. I was looking for something fuchsia but I didn't like the design of what I found first. Then I stumbled on this pair with Winnie the Pooh design. It was sooo cute, I did not think twice and bought it (oo, pambata ito, but who cares? nag-kasya naman sa'kin yung biggest size [4] ). 

Ang babaw talaga noh? pero masaya na talaga ako at may nai-uwi ako that day...

Also that day I ate Fruits in Ice Cream (yum). Isa nanamang kababawan! The raspberry flavor was just divine (a little exaggeration here).

Speaking of fruits (and kababawan) nag-Fruitas naman ako when I went to Galleria with Paul. Sobrang refreshing ang orange shake lalo na ngayong napaka init ng panahon...

Paul and I went to Antipolo last Tuesday to join the procession. It has actually been his tradition to go there every year (with Charlie and Gener). This year he wanted to go with me  para ma-experience ko naman daw. At first I was hesitant because I was afraid that my mom woun't allow me to go. But since he insisted that I go with him, he talked to my mom (he had dinner with us here on my dad's birthday). Gano'n na sila ka-close! To my surprise, my mom said yes.

So we went..and saw..Gener and Charlie. They kind of looked after me pa nga because Paul went to carry the image of the Blessed Mother. Ayaw ko rin namang mawala dun noh kaya okay lng.

We also saw Lola Flor there. I was actually expecting to see her since it's also her panata to go there every first Tuesday of May. As usual, she was very excited upon seeing us.

It was a fun experience. Sa totoo lang, hindi naman ako napagod sa paglalakad (kahit na bundok pa yung pinanik namin). I'd like to do that again next year

***I got a text from this company--the ONE AND ONLY company--that I applied to during that job fair (megamall). It was an invitation for an initial exam (for the position of English Ed). Okay sana yung company BUT sobrang layo naman, sa Paranaque pare! Plus, dapat okay ako for ANY SHIFT in case I get the job. So to avoid the same trouble that I encountered with the Korean thing, I immediately texted them to say that I'm not coming.

Take your time, anak--my dad (I miss him)

Why does this happen? One minute I am okay, and then suddenly I become anxious about everything. I worry and worry and find myself so unhappy about how things are. I seem to have no contentment. This is normal right? Nobody really gets satisfied with what they have. Everybody wants more.

It isn't really bad to strive for something higher or better. In fact, it is a good thing to work harder and push one's self up. What's not healthy is when one does it at the expense of others.

A sad fact is that, in our world today, stepping on others is ordinary. The term "survival of the fittest" has taken another meaning. Nobody cares about his neighbors anymore. What's important is that he gets what he wants. He becomes better. He gets rich. He becomes famous.

This is why world peace is impossible. As long as we do not feel contentment, there will be people who will suffer. Ourselves included.

Why does she have to wear a gown when doing The Buzz? It’s not a formal event, is it? It’s nothing really special since she's on TV everyday naman, right? Well, siguro it’s special na rin kasi Sunday naman..but please, enough with the b**bs!

I love picking on Kris. She doesn’t blog naman siguro..hehe!

Meteor Garden is gonna be shown again. I don’t really care. Yes, lately I’ve been slightly hooked on Korean soaps, but the “original” didn’t really have that much impact on Me. I watched it but I wasn’t on the I’d-die-if-I-miss-an-episode level of liking it. Parang ang weird kasi nila (the characters) minsan. And I honestly think that it would not get as much rating as it did when it was first shown..pero malay natin..

I watched A Day Without a Mexican yesterday. It had a clear message. So clear na nawalan na ng kwenta yung story. Buti na lang Paul brought Yellow Cab pizza. Kahit papaano, nakatulong sa pag-alis ng inis.

On the other hand, Hot Chicks and Dodgeball were hilarious, I’d watch it over and over..It’s kinda weird seeing Ben Stiller in that kind of role though. ‘di lang siguro ako sanay.

Hitch is a nice film din. It’s one of my favorite movies now, check my friendster page. I like Will Smith na (Kris Aquino accent here).

I’m really enjoying watching dvds (pirated, of course). Magpaka-saya ka na, Virginia. Pag nagka-trabaho ka na, wala nang ganyan ganyan (me talking to myself). I’m scheduled for an interview tomorrow (scary!). Sana hindi ako pumalpak!

I am officially looking for a job. So far..so bad! I went to this interview at a media company. I was clueless on what position they're offering because my tita just sent them my resume. It turned out they were looking for a "sub-titler". What the heck is a sub-titler? A person who does sub-titling. What the heck is sub-titling? The process of putting sub-titles on videos.

It seems like an easy job..for one who has good ears! I've done transcriptions back in college (hala, feeling matagal nang graduate?) for some projects but, doing it as a career? I don't think so. Eh super bingi kaya ako! Hay..nabuhayan ako ng loob nung sinabi na they're looking for a PA-researcher sa creative dept. Unfortunately, the head didn't think that I was for the job. "hindi kita nakikita sa TV eh." (Hello! hindi talaga dahil lagi akong tumatanggi sa mga offers para mag-artista..CHARING! just trying to cheer myself up). I knew what he meant. Kahit naman ako, hindi ko nakikita ang sarili ko sa TV production..

..maybe I could recommend Jen to them. Si bestfriend pa bagay dun! (speaking of Jen, I miss her na. she's too busy with her OJT we hardly talk.)

Anyway, he was polite naman to give me a writing test (para kunwari may pag-asa) and then came the we'll-call-you-if-you-made-it talk. Well, no hard feelings if I don't make it. Really.

This morning naman I had an interview and an exam for a review center. I was applying as a writer but they said that they need tutors. (flashback: I applied for an english tutor position but turned it down when they were already hiring me). This one's different naman. I'll be teaching my kababayans if I make it. English, of course. Nung una pa nga gusto Spanish dahil nakita sa transcript ko, ayoko nga, no habla espanol, lo siento (I'm not even sure if this is correct). I'm thinking about it really hard. I'm not sure if I'm ready to teach. I honestly think that I still need more experience.

Anyway, I took the exam while there was a class going on so I had a peek at how it works. It was like a normal class naman and it looks like fun. Sana this one's as good as it looks.

I still have pending application at..I'm not sure, basta sa Citystate bldg. sa Makati.

Still not panicking.. 

Paul's leaving for Subic tomorrow for a seminar ..waahh!! He was here kanina pero sandali lang..we talked on the phone pero sandali lang din..I'll really miss him. Three days and two nights yun! Wala naman akong karapatang umangal dahil official (daw) na lakad yun ng SK..at tsaka pinayagan nya ko sa La Union dati, unfair naman kung sya hindi ko papayagan..hay..

Nakakatuwa naman, may pumapansin na sa mga blog ko .

Wala paring tumatawag na trabaho..still not going to panic..May palang naman eh.

I was really feeling so pissed kanina. Pagkagising ko palang, bad trip na ko. Ewan ko ba kung tinotopak lang talaga ako (which is normal) o there's something wrong with me na talaga..Parang naiinis ako sa lahat ng tao, ewan ko ba!! Tapos, to make things worse, walang Double Dutch na flavor ng ice cream!arhg!! Yun na nga lang ang inaasahan kong mag-cheer up sa'kin, wala pa..

Paul was so sweet to offer to bring me some ice cream pero I remembered na nakaka-taba pala yun, kaya sabi ko wag na lang.

Sana naman maging maganda na ang gising ko bukas..

hay..wala nga pala si Paul, paano magiging maganda yun?

                            I've never...

...been this...

                                  ...B O R E D!!!

I miss Paul sooo much

While at National bookstore the other day, I spotted this Italian dictionary. I thought, hey, what if I learn to speak Italian? It would be so cool! But it would be a lot of work too. Heck! I don't know a single Italian word! hehe.. But in the future, I'd really like to go to Italy..kami ni Paul, naka-plano na yan sa European trip namin! harhar..our first stop: Rome.

Your Inner European is Italian!

Passionate and colorful. You show the world what culture really is.

Marilyn Monroe?

You May Be a Bit Dependent ...

You're more than a little preoccupied with being abandoned. You need a lot of support in your life, at all times. It's difficult for you to survive on your own... And you don't reallly think you ever could.

Akalain mong normal pala ako!!!

You Are 60% Normal (Really Normal)

Otherwise known as the normal amount of normal You're like most people most of the time But you've got those quirks that make you endearing You're unique, yes... but not frighteningly so!

Paul's back!!! I never realized how much I missed him until I saw him. I wanted to hug and kiss him but my whole family's here so..next time nalang!

He bought me this cute pig lucky charm for my phone, a bag of Kisses (cookies), a bag of Lay's and a can of Pringles (super yum!) I really love chips!

I also had a little surprise for him..while he was on his way here (straight from Subic), me, Michee and her boyfriend went to the salon to have our hair done. I really wanted to look different because everytime I have my hait cut, I feel like nothing's changed. So this time, I instructed Felix to give me some bangs..I wasn't really sure at first but, Michee and my bestfriend Jen convinced me to do it. Para ma-iba naman daw..Well, it turned out okay naman. Medyo 'di pa sanay mga tao so naninibago sa hitsura ko..

I couldn't wait to see Paul's reaction when he sees me . Thank God, he liked it at bagay naman daw! hehe..

I can't wait for us to make up for lost time..

Since I couldn't think of anything to write about..

..let me just reminisce the summer that was..

I was right. I was freakin' right. Staphinie would be the one to die, her heart would be transplented to heart and they would live happily aver after. I was even correct on how Stephanie would die. She would be shot during an agawan-ng-baril  scene. Hay naku, pwede na talaga akong direktor ng teleserye! hehe. It was actually predictable. How many movies/soaps ended up with a kidnapping scene, huh? The abandoned building, goons, police that's always late, at syempre, ang agawan ng baril scene where someone always gets killed. Hindi mo pa malalaman sa una kung sino ba ang nabaril dahil mukha lang ng nag-aagawan ang pinapakita at pareho sila ng reksyon. How about some originality? here's my suggested endings:

Ending #1. Nobody would die. Kris would only be in coma so she doesn't need to act anymore kahit sa last scene lang. Not even a bat of an eyelash.

Ending #2. Kris would be the one to die. She would fall from the helicopter while on her way to rescue Margaret and Stephanie.

Ending #3. The same ending. Only at the church, ipapakita yung nagkakampana..Si Anne Curtis bilang Kampanerang Kuba! hahaha.

*kawawa naman si Kris sa'kin..tsk tsk.

I'm both sad and glad that Hiram's over. Sad because I liked that soap. I wasn't a fanatic but I enjoyed watching it. But for me, I think Anne and Dina were the better actresses. They were both so convincing. And I think Stephanie and Andrew were a better pair. Cute kasi yung team up nila. Si Heart kasi parang sobrang bait. Hindi na makatotohanan. At si Kris, siya ang PINAKA HINDI MAKATOTOHANAN SA LAHAT!!! waaah!.

It's pretty obvious. Kris is the reason why I'm sooo glad it's over. I really find it abusive to see her acting on Hiram. Parang, dapat ito i-censor na. I saw this really old movie of Kris a few days ago at naku, Kris na Kris. Parang wala siyang ipinag-unlad. Haay..ngayon hindi na 'ko maba-bad trip pag nanonood.

*I know I'm so mean. .but I really love picking on Ms. Aquino..hehe

Paul and I found a new way to bond: COOKING!

Actually, we were inspired by Michee and her boyfriend. They cooked tuna spag yesterday. So Paul had this marvelous idea that we should cook for dinner naman. We bought a whole chicken, put some salt, pepper, garlic margarine and cheese on it and roasted it. First time naming iluto iyon so there was a warning to everyone: pag hindi masarap, may spag pa naman..hehe

Fortunately, okay naman ang naging lasa. They liked it naman, kahit medyo overcooked, hehe. Next time we know what to do.

I really wish we could do it again. Paul is such a good cook talaga. Kaya naman nasisira ang diet ko!! Pero okay lang, I love everything that Paul cooks for me.

Welcome To My Life

Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

 Simple Plan ROcKS BIG TIME! They don't just sing for the sake of singing. You can really relate to their music. Yeah, some of their songs are kind of negative and about self-pity but hey, may mga taong iyon talaga ang trip..tulad ko. No all the time though..may mga panahon lang talagang..never mind. Basta, I can, and sometimes do, cry to the tune of "Welcome to my Life". Weird na kung weird. Weird talaga ako minsan.

The next time that they perform here, I will watch na..I just hope it's not with Avril again. She's bitchy pala. I used to be a fan but after the rude I'm-so-hot-I-don't-care-about-you-Filipinos gesture when she came here, not anymore. She's too bitchy. Too bitchy for Filipinos. Too bitchy for me.

I've done the worst thing that an applicant could ever do: Show up late! I was supposed to take an exam in Makati at 8:30. I woke up really early just to be on time. Unfortunately, every street EVERYWHERE was jammed. As in jammed talaga! I didn't anticipate that since it was a Tuesday. That kind of heavy traffic usually happens on Mondays. Tapos wala pang masakyan, parang spaghetti na yung pila sa haba, pa-ikot na!! (this isn't an exaggeration). So Paul and I took a cab, pero wala parin.

Anyway, I knew I was already late but I still went..well actually I wasn't sure kasi advanced yung watch ko, so I was still hoping na on time parin. Bahala na. And so upon signing the log book, puro for examination yung sinundan ko. I went up (fifth floor) and waited. After a few seconds (oo, sandali lang kasi bad news naman ang sasabihin nila) a guy called me.

Guy: Miss Johnson?

Me: Yes?

The guy gestures for me to sit down.

Guy: Good morning. (with a smile)

Me: good morning (with a smile din)

Guy: (here comes the bust) You were supposed to be here at 8:30 right?

Me: yes

Guy: Anong oras ka ba dumating?

Me: ngayon lang po.

Guy: Kasi we follow a schedule here no, nag-s-tart na kasi yung mga mag-eexam. Madami kasing applicants ngayon, 20 silang nag-eexam. Ngayon, I'll schedule you na lang for next week. Bakit ka ba kasi na late?

Me: Traffic po kasi kahit saan. (totoo naman noh, hindi ito excuse lang!!!)

Guy: Saan ka ba umuuwi?

Me: Sa Taguig po (Home of the Global City and Market! Market!..and Camp Bagong Diwa..and Maharlika Village!!)

Guy: Next time agahan mo na lang ang alis.

Me: okay

Guy: but here's the last part of the exam that you're supposed to take. It's the essay part. Four questions. Sagutan mo na para next week yung first parts na lang tatapusin mo.

Me: okay

Whew. Buti na lang they were nice to schedule me for an exam the following week. I wasn't bitter this time. I was telling Paul na, okay lang. I'm not expecting to get hired because of my kapalpakan, but I'll still show up next week. Bad shot na nga ako, hahayaan ko pa bang ma-blacklist ako?

Moving on, mabuti na rin yung nangyari. Maaga kaming nakapunta sa UST to fix Paul's papers para sa kanyang "pagbabalik". Okay naman but he still needs to come back the following day to submit some requirements..I'm really glad that he's back.

Then on our way home we bought acouple of dibidis. We've been wanting to buy Kill Bill Vol. 2 and we finally did yesterday. Then Paul spotted Lion King 1 1/2. We bought it too. I am a big fan of Timone and Pumba. And I'm sure that this one's gonna be really hilarious..I miss their series tuloy. I never failed to watch that dati sa channel 7, hehe.

I haven't been doing anything lately and it's boring the hell out of me! I've been doing the same thing every single day. I wake up. surf the net. watch tv. eat. watch dvds. sleep. tamad noh? minsan naman naglilinis ako ng bahay..minsan.

yes, I have been "working out" but I'm getting bored with it too. Besides, I haven't seen any changes since I started . Patience, Ivee, patience. Still I'm determined to get that Angel Locsin body..Darna! harharhar!!! (minus the b**bs siguro).

Oh, and while getting bored, i can't help but think about my frustrations. things that i have always been wanting to do but can't because of some restrictions.

Because I am not tall I can't:

-Play basketball. Well, I can but let's face it, with 5 ft for a height? In my dreams..I can shoot some hoops, though..

-Conquer that catwalk. Who doesn't wanna be a model? But again, with this height, I could be a perfect model for kids' apparel!!!

I wish I was taller, but I do not resent my being small. I still have my capabilities, you know. Cute naman eh..hehe..walang malaking nakaka-puwing. I am happy with my height and I'm doing my best to make the most out of it.MABUHAY ANG MGA MALILIIT!

Some other frustrations:

-I'd really like to be an archaeologist. I love the past (history). I'm so fascinated with ancient objects being discovered and excavated. Some may find that boring, creepy and a bit disgusting, but I find it really cool and exciting.

*two Japanese stragglers were reportedly seen in General Santos. Awesome! astig kasi after 60 years, buhay pa sila. Sana ma-meet ko sila..hehe

-Singing. need I say more?