It's been a week now since Nanay passed away. I'm still trying to convince myself that she's not here anymore. I'm not really the lola's girl, and I wasn't also a favorite, but I'm really missing her. Last night I had a dream about her. She was talking to me but I can't remember what she was saying...I just wish I could have spent more time with her and showed her how much I love her. change subject, bago pa 'ko maiyak! This site is kinda cool. I learned about it from aBby. Anyway, it was the last day of school--the last day of my being in college... scary!!! I still don't have any CONCRETE plans after graduation, but I really, really, REALLY want to work immediately. A lot of relatives are offering help (most of them know somebody from ABS) I'm not quite sure if I wanna be a kapamilya.. Going back, I had my FINAL final exam today. I had no idea what to write for that Stock Exchange and Foreign Exchange articles...so I did what I usually do: mag-barbero! siguro naman half of the class did the same, hehe. It was also our last meeting with sir Al..um, honestly I had fun having him as a professor. He's the coolest. As expected, the class had a photo session. Everyone was so excited to pose and "create memories". It was fun, ngayon pa lang namimiss ko na sila..(sob) We (ja,anj and kel, pati si candice) ended our book na. I'm sooo excited about the outcome! I'm gonna miss asking (nonsense) questions... What else? um...ah, my Tita Alice is leaving tomorrow and she can't figure out how to fit all her stuff into her balikbayan boxes. pa'no, binili yata buong Divisoria! Sayang, it's gonna be a long time before we see each other again. I'm gonna miss her. Hay..I wonder what Paul is doing...baka nasa barangay nanaman. Well, that's it for now. try to be back tom..23

Is there any cure for Severe Acute INSECURITY Syndrome? I really need it fast fast fast!!! hay... For the Nth time, I have promised to go on a diet. TOTOO NA ITO! I'm really getting frustrated na, I couldn't wear what I wanna wear and I feel so heavy..Paul also promised to go on a diet, sana kayanin namin 'to! My dad, my mom and I went to Megamall today. We were like "one big happy family" 'cause we were all wearing blue shirts We bought Ken a new guitar. Tita Ochie, Riel and Zhyrelle went home to Malabon today. I'm gonna miss those cute little RASCALS, kahit sinampal ako ni Riel kanina! anyway, I'm starting to believe that I really have short-term memory loss..imagine, I left our thesis at the baggage counter!!! We were already home when I remembered that I left it at the baggage counter because it was a little heavy. good thing Paul was SOOOO nice to go back to Megamall to get it for me. whew! He's such an angel... It's also Paul's sister's birthday today. Tita Gina sent us spag, lumpiang sariwa, pininyahang manok and cathedral window, yum yum! what else...um, oh, our other panelist finally released our grade..and we got 1.5!!! yipeee! I was getting pissed na kanina when I texted our thesis coordinator. He said that our panelist was still waiting for our revised thesis! We have already shown her our revised work and I remember CLEARLY that she said na it was OK na. It turned out the other pair from the other journ class pala yung may kulang.. gotta go now, have to call fofs...

I didn't do anything today except sit in front of the computer and surf the net. whatta bum!!! haha

in fairness to me, I started applying for jobs..through the internet nga lang, haha!  

Michee was supposed to come home today but she wasn't able to because her class ended late, how sad  I miss her na kasi eh. she'll be home on Saturday.

anyway, I just finished doing Ken's projects. I hope I get, I mean he gets a good grade for it.

I didn't see Paul today  he went to Mandaluyong to visit his grandma. I really wish to see him tomorrow..

I totally forgot about my diet---argh! I ate halo-halo..

um..sige yun lang. 23

It's been a long and tiring day.. my mom, dad and I went to the SSS office to fix some papers..and I got my SS number..yipee!! now I'm ready to be part of the work force..or maybe not! I still have to get a TIN and NBI clearance..

anyway, after SSS, we went on a "mall tour". our first stop was...what's the name of that mall? a basta, the one at EDSA Central. then we went to Shangri-La. we just strolled, again we were "one big happy family" (I bet Paul's gonna tease me again when he finds out )

Our final stop was SM Megamall, ang pambansang mall. Dad bought a new pair of eye glasses..and I bought a magazine..yeah, yeah I know I promised not to by magazines anymore since it's just a waste of money, "parepareho lang naman ang laman nyan" (Laurin, 2004). But I couldn't help it, the cover stories were so "inviting": one about finding a job, how to be a model, shaping up and the proper diet..who can resist that?!

michee wasn't able to come home again. she has two exams tomorrow and she's not feeling well. hay, i miss her na talaga!

i haven't heard from paul since I woke up, which is so unusual. He was supposed to come with us but he changed his mind at the last minute. Then when i called his house when I got home, he wasn't there..I wonder where he went..di nagpaalam yun ah anaway, I'll call him na lang later (how conio!)..

gotta go na, baka mabasa pa ng mga magulang ko 'to..nasa paligid lang sila  23

we had our closing party yesterday. too bad we were not complete  but nontheless, it was fun ..as usual madaming picture-picture, kainan at kadramahan! nakakamiss talaga..I had my uniform signed, naisip ko lang, I didn't have a pen pa nga kaya nanghiram nlang ako. nakaka-touch yung mga messages ng mga classmates ko, I'll really treasure that simple remembrance from them ..Finally, na-launch na yung book namin, patok talaga! I had a little trip down memory lane while reading it, nakakatawa talaga! I couldn't let go of the book. what a page-turner..

madaming nangyari kahapon..Paul and I had one of our let's-cool-off-for-one-week type of fight . Pero as usual, bumigay sya! haha! we ended up cuddling and feeling really REALLY stupid! (feeling ko pa mamamatay na ko while I was crying, di ako makahinga!)

I'm sure glad that we were able to fix it..ayaw ko nang maulit yun ever!!

Finally, nakauwi na si Michee, kaya lang she's sick.. di tuloy kami maka-gala! siguro next week, pag bakasyon na siya talaga..

I wasn't suppose to eat dinner because of my diet, but I couldn't resist my mom's nilagang baboy!

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I miss watching Aladdin. It really is my ultimate Disney favorite! I once dreamed of becoming an Arabian princess, just like Jasmine..(when I was still a kid, of course). I'm just so fascinated with how Aladdin deals with his enemies..Plus, Genie, Abu and..oh no, I forgot the name of the parrot!! tsk, tsk. Shame on me.. anyway, the three of them are sooo funny . I wish I could watch the series again.

Moving on, nothing much happened today. Paul went here with all these kakanin (puto, kutsinta and inutak) and some smidgets..We watched the Incredibles and Shark Tale. I was expecting Shark Tale to be the one that sucks ('cause some of my friends said so) and the Incredibles to be the one that "rocks" ('cause I liked the trailer) but it was the other way around. I actually liked Shark Tale more. The choreography was terrific .

Anyway..I realized how much I missed Paul since we did not see each other yesterday. I hope to spend a little more time with him..at sana maka-labas naman kami some time.

I did something naughty..I left Paul to talk with my dad, hihi!  I thought it would be good for them to have some "quality time". It went pretty well..I'm so glad that they're really getting along.  

Michee's feeling a little better now, and she said that her exam was easy. Sana makumpleto na kami dito sa bahay .

I wish to do something more PRODUCTIVE tomorrow..

I can't believe that I'm actually graduating. we had our (I hope to spell this right) Baccalaureate Mass yesterday and the ceremony was really..well, cool . It was supposed to be solemn but the constant howling of the AB students made it..even cooler, haha .

Imagine, four years ago we (the graduates of 2005) didn't even know each other and I had no idea what would happen to me in college. But yesterday, everyone seemed so bonded.

I can still remember my first day in AB...I was not scared, actually at that time (until I met Atty. Bong Lopez). I didn't have my uniform yet so I was in civilian clothes on the first day of classes. I didn't know what to do and whom to talk to.

I wasn't the friendly type that would approach somebody first so I was a bit worried that I would not have any friends in college. Thank God I was able to make friends..not too many, though, but I know that they are REAL friends..

my only regret is that I was not really able to mix with the class. I wish I had made an effort to really get to know ALL of my classmates better...wait, I have another regret..that I wasn't able to take pictures of my classmates for remembrance. some of them gave me their grad pics but I wish I could've taken pictures of everyone..hay, sa friendster na lang! hehe

Anyway, I'm still happy to have been part of 4 JOurnalism 2. Honestly, I agree with Tam. five, ten years from now, we would probably forget about each other..we would be busy with work, family and other stuff, and we would never have time to check on each other anymore. (so thanks to FRIENDSTER, at least we could look into each other's profiles once in a while).

But I also believe that in one corner of our hearts, our college memories will remain. We would still look back to our "glory days in AB" haha!

seriously, I will miss my classmates, ALL of them. (even the apathetic ones, a.k.a. KJs).

Well, there's a great future ahead of us all..I wish them all the best.

It was that tiime of the year again..last Good Friday, we have been invaded again by those..relatives of ours. I don't really have anything against them. It's just that, everytime they come over, we suddenly become the outsiders. I don't know how they do it, but they instantly gain full control of the household. Well, maybe bacause they provide the food..but still, this is our house. We live here, and we shouldn't be thrown out just like that! okay, now I'm overreacting. Actually, it could also be our fault. Ever since we were kids, we were like this..we hide in our rooms once they arrive and we never really mingle with them. I decided to change that attitude this year and started walking proudly around the house..yes, while they were already here feasting on my mom's infamous (and oh-so-delicious) Pancit Malabon. Although I didn't really mix with them, I was around..and I think they felt my presence naman..it's a good start, maybe next year I'll try talking to them.

I miss Zhyrelle (I still do not know how that kid's name is spelled) already!  Well, it won't be long til I see him again, they'll be coming on the 7th for Nanay's 40 days.

Something really exciting happened today..I got a call from a company! yey!!! hay..my first job interview. everyone fussed about it, mom, dad, paul..everyone exept me. I don't know..maybe this is my defense mechanism..you know, against being soo nervous. I'm not really good at interviews..well, I'll just keep my fingers crossed

Today I was almost part of the labor force. I was supposed to start my training as an online teacher. I went to the office (in Makati) realy early, but still not certain whether I would accept or decline. The boss, Ricky, a Korean (I think), first introduced me to everybody. Then he asked one of them to orient me about the job.

They were all nice naman, especially Twinkle and Robyn. But as the orientation went on, I realized that I wasn't really for the job. I can't imagine myself teaching the English language to Koreans..eh yung boss pa nga lang, di ko na maintindihan ang sinasabi eh..I also realized that I would really like to write more than anything else. And so, I met up with my folks, (yep, mom, dad, michee and ken were all there!), and confided with them. Actually, from the very beginning, my mom did not approve of the job, because of its unusual shifts. the AM shift starts at 5 in the morning and ends at 2 PM. the PM shift starts at 3 pm and ends at 11 pm. ayaw ko yatang gumising ng alas-4 o kaya eh umuwi ng alas-onse ng gabi!

to end my agony, I decided to talk to Vicky, one of the managers (I think), and told her that I changed my mind. Fortunately, they were so understanding. they said it was okay, and buti pa ko, nagsasabi. some successful applicants just disappeard without any word. haay..I'm so glad to get this off my back..and so, my first day at work became my last..no regrets!

moving on, my whole family headed to G4 to spend some quality time, finally! we watched The Pacifier, and we really enjoyed the movie. I'm not a big fan of Vin but I must agree that he did well in this film. he was hilarious. By the way, Lorelai Gilmore (Lauren Graham) was also in the film. Nothing really new about her acting. Very Lorelai.

afterwards, we strolled for a while. I bought a pair of heavy-rimmed shades and a pair of thong slip-ons. oh well, summer's here!

I'm so tired! I can't wait to take a shower..and call Paul, I really missed him.